and for the last week. the news & newspaper was practically flood with Mumbai Terror attack (which also results in one Singaporean who passed away during the attack) and Bangkok Anti-Govt Riots news (results in airport closing down, people couldn't travel back and fro).
tell me, world peace, where are you?
Friday, November 28, 2008 @ 8:33 PM
i'm broke. i can declare myself bankrupt already! :(
ahh. December is coming. my favourite month. 2009 is coming. new year coming.
and, should i buy iPod or Sony MP3? :(
random as it is. i should start studying, ain't it? :)
@ 8:29 AM
i felt the distinct differences. it's really so different.
sigh. :(
on a lighter note, Lin Feng & Zheng Jia Ying (Kevin Cheng) from HK looks super duper good looking can? they went for the opening of the restaurant at Mohammad Sultan Road. but i was so short and there's so many people. so i could only catch glimpse of them, but it was good enough.
and i am feeling better in terms of health & mood! thanks people for their sms-es. go and have breakfast & to medicine. i will do a proper update when i have time.
random: i wish i have a magic wand now, so i can change everything.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008 @ 9:33 AM
once i make up my decisions, i don't want to change it. but this time round, it's different. :(
i thought i was decisive enough. but i guess i am not. :(
to settle 3 things in mind this week is so difficult & taxing. simple as it may sound, but it's not. :(
on a sidenote! JJ concert next year 28 March 2009! :)
Sunday, November 23, 2008 @ 12:21 PM
i waited at the clinic for 1 hour & 30 minutes before it was my turn to see the doctor. and i have 3 packets of medicine to complete. boo.
Friday, November 21, 2008 @ 3:00 PM
i am having a flu, a sore throat and fever. i don't like the nose, the throat and the muscles.
fever have gone down. flu was better. but sore throat was not.
i going BBQ tonight. let me enjoy before i am stuck with 2 assignments next week. :(
Monday, November 17, 2008 @ 10:58 PM
my friend told me this morning. i look very tired today. am i, do i? :(
it's sad enough yesterday. and i tell myself, forget it, it'll be a better day today!
but it's more s*** to know that he's siding with her, with everything she say is correct. i already say i didn't want the ___ back. why can't they understand? i don't think they understand me well just like i don't understand them. life is like that, ain't it?
tomorrow will be a better day. i wouldn't cry anymore, i promise. i will go town later, alone, to do some retail therapy as well as take a walk around.
tomorrow will be a better day. :)
Saturday, November 15, 2008 @ 4:46 PM
sometimes, it's not i want to quarrel with her. but her attitude just totally piss me off 100%.
her idea and my idea just totally don't click. and i hate to quarrel with her over money issue or trival issue. it's like i really got not much money left, and she don't believe me. and she will say, i don't know how to be a good daughter/god-daughter or whatever. or when i am at home, i dont' know how to do housework. or whatsoever. or she can just say i am a total failure, i not as generous as my sister or i am not as what as my brother. i want to find a part-time job this semester,you think i don't want, but then, i got no time for my studies already, you think i don't want? when i say i want to find a job, all my friends will just say, i am mad, cos i got no time and all. you think i don't want to earn money to help out myself?i want. you think by the amount you gave me per month is enough? maybe to you, but not me. i already cut down a lot of things. online shopping, shopping, ktv and all kind of stuff already. you think what's the point of learning ____, when there's no ____ for me to ______. why you let brother and sister to put braces, when i also want to put. i really want to put, and yet you don't want to pay for me. saying, i don't need it and if i want, pay for it myself. then why do they need it. she will say bro and sister need it cos the dentist ask them to or whatsoever. then she will say, if i put, i will really regret and keep on shouting it's pain, it's painful or what. they also got complain, and yet, sometimes, you will still say, it's like that to them. and whenever, i say i really got no much ______, my siblings will just go against me too. saying i lie or what. i already know it's unfair to ask to sponsor me part of it for _______ because i know they spend on my education and all other stuff like piano, that's why i don't dare to ask for it. and she don't understand. it's really sometimes, i really got no idea out and in the crossroad, then i will say it. she just don't understand my point of view, and keep on saying, if you want the __ back, then okay, we will give you back, but you wouldn't get double of it or what. she will also say, i am fortunate already. my education my dad pays for me, as well as poly education. not like some of her friends children, who want to study, and yet they have to pay for themselves, or poly education through cpf. i know that. but why must she compare them to me. i know i am fortunate sometimes. and i can't stand it when she wants to compare. and make me feel so guilty. alright, fine, whatever.
i learn what i want not because of you, but because of me, for myself. if you don't like it, then never mind. i can get out of your life if you want.
seriously, i am super utterly disappointed. in myself, and you.
maybe somehow, i shouldn't be born or even what. i am tired. really tired. really really tired of everything.
:'(
Friday, November 14, 2008 @ 8:36 AM
sometimes, its better off not to think so much, ain't it?
Wednesday, November 12, 2008 @ 7:40 PM
i was looking through my handphone sms-es. i was tempted to delete quite a lot of messages. but in the end, i didn't.
memories, ain't they? but one day, if i accidentally delete all, will the memories be gone as well? :(
@ 9:24 AM
i was thinking about something yesterday. and i tried to dismiss that something yesterday out of my mind.
it's like covering your emotions with a mask and tried to be happy when you are absolutely not. it's funny people ask you the same thing. and you yourself having to repeat the same thing.
i guess it's like as you grow older, the more you don't trust other people. maybe it's just my thinking anyway. i don't know what got over me yesterday night after the phone call. but i think it's just another phase for me to think, to grow and to learn.
i am who i am. i am happy now with myself alone. i don't wish to know what's going to happen for me in the future. step by step, inch by inch, i want my own dreams to grow.
another random post.
Friday, November 07, 2008 @ 4:22 PM
i prove to be a road hazard on the road. sigh.
i got traumatized again.
@ 12:26 AM
my mom is so funny. for the past Tuesday & Thursday, if i ever go and have supper,i would reach home really late.
then i came home late, she ask why am i home so late, and i dare to come home alone in the middle of the night.
then this Tuesday and Thursday when i came home early, she ask me why am i reach home so early.
then what does she wants? haha
Wednesday, November 05, 2008 @ 9:31 AM
i got traumatized yesterday. ahhh, nvm.
anyway, president election in US. go and watch the news now with my milo and biscuits. go Obama!
tomorrow, i will be 500 bucks poorer. :( tomorrow, driving lesson. tomorrow, singing lesson.
ahhh, i need a job to cover my expenses! :)
Sunday, November 02, 2008 @ 12:41 PM
i save this post on Friday night, but i decide to repost it. :)
his album is going to be out like real soon, which is in fact this month lahh. and i like this song.
and boo, tomorrow got school. some of my friends went Genting yesterday night and they must be playing happily now.
ahhh, back to my MSM assignment. :(
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DeDuan / DD
23, LPS, CSS, TP, SIM, 23/08/1986
shy, independent/dependent, perfectionist
music, piano, shopping, family & friends make up her life
loves cheescakes & chocolates,beach & stars wish for honours(hopefully), driving license, travel around the world, happily ever after, get a good job, diamonds, digital camera
